One of the most difficult challenges in my life and career is to find harmony in my work and day to day. Often times, I've felt lost or saddened by my shortcomings, only to find that I've been calibrated to force myself to try and do well at things that don't come naturally to me.
I've started reading Strengths Finder by Gallup and took the strengths test for an assessment on my individuality and how I play in the world we live in.
1. I am surprised by how ashamed I am to admit my strengths and talents (I noticed this when my brother asked me what I liked to do).
2. I often reflect on my childhood sharing statements to my parents about how I wanted to be an artist, animator, singer or actor growing up, to find it constantly diminished to finding a "constructive" career that will provide me money. I know this was an act of love, but it destroyed my confidence.
3. I get so bogged down by what I'm incapable of, or how I can make myself better at things I don't do well or don't like to do, instead of focusing on my strengths. This slows down my process in the office for fear of failure or visibility of shortcomings amidst my colleagues.
The path to self-discovery is so healing and energizing, because now I can take this information and apply it to better use, so I can express what I AM capable of and how I CAN be a valuable asset to any team.